As I was walking into Starbucks yesterday, lugging my Dell laptop, I saw a woman using an umbrella in the sprinkles of rain. And I thought, "Why do people use umbrellas when it's only sprinkling?" (Though I know the answer to that question is that it usually means they aren't from around here. Real Northwest natives don't use umbrellas.) But that got me to thinking that there's a lot I'm wondering about these days.
will I really spend the rest of my life having to change seizure medications when the one I'm currently taking ceases to be effective? After a mere (almost) four years, I've recently had to change medications. Won't I eventually run out of medications to try, and then be left with having to be on two medications? (This is really what originally got me wondering.)
why do drivers think that tailing someone really closely will make that person go faster?
why do dogs walk in a circle before laying down?
why are little, five year old boys so noisy?
why does the stay-at-home mom crowd feel a bit like being in junior high or high school again?
and in that line of thinking, why is there so much drama in female friendships?
why is Max stammering (I dislike the word stuttering) so much? And what can I do to fix it?
why do I worry so much about what others might think of me?
why won't Max stay in his own bed all night? Really.
why do I stay up so late when I'm exhausted?
and why do I feel like I need a nap the minute I wake up?
if I will ever get to see Maroon 5 in concert? (I kind of have a crush on Adam Levine.)
why am I so afraid to carry my camera around in public?
why is Nurse Jackie so funny when she's really kind of not-so-nice? (Though I'd love to have her as a nurse.)
why do kids always get sick to their stomach in the middle of the night?
why do I worry so much about Max being bullied when he goes to public school?
why, at almost 39, am I suddenly so afraid of the aging process?
why I'm suddenly so worried about my parents aging?
why don't men like to simply talk about things for the sake of just talking and connecting with other people?
why do I hate the idea of exercising, but once I actually do it I feel so good?
why can't we all forgive each other more easily?
why can't we all just put away our electronic devices when we are out for dinner or drinks or coffee? Aren't we specifically out with that other person for the sake of connecting with them, and not the people out there in electronic device land?
why does personal growth require so much risk and vulnerability and trust?
why didn't I listen to my inner voice in college and pursue medical school? why did I think I couldn't do it?
why is it so hard to find a good fitting pair of jeans?
what ever will I do with my time when Max is in school all day?
how difficult will it be to find a job when I decide to go back to work? And what ever will I do?
if I should go back to school once Max is in school all day?
why do I always find my favorite (of the moment) lipstick color after I go buy a replacement?
why is it so hard to get back to pre-pregnancy weight (six years later)?
why is it that I start yawning the minute I lay in Max's bed to read him bedtime stories?
how is it I can be reading books to Max and thinking about other things at the same time?
why do I feel like I'm bothering people if I email them or text them? (With the exception of a few close friends and family.)
will meal planning ever get any easier? I never know what to make for dinner.
why is this cheese so stinkin' good?
why I feel like I don't have anything interesting to blog about the past few months?
if I'll ever finish the dozen or so blog drafts I have waiting to be finished?
if I'll ever figure out the one thing I've been trying to figure out in my photography?
where we will move to next. It's inevitable in the construction business. Seattle? I hope so. But I could also go for sunny California.
will I ever stop worrying so much?
will I ever find any answers to all of these questions?
And of course this post wouldn't be complete without asking, I wonder why the sky blue?
I wonder if I got YOU to wondering about some things in your life.
That's all for today. As you can see, I've got a lot on my mind.
(Sorry for the lengthy list. Which gets me thinking, why do I feel like I have to apologize all of the time?...)