Friday, April 15, 2011



I'm thankful it's Friday. This week has been a blur, and yet has dragged on forever. It's been a week filled with injections, doctor appointments, trips to the pharmacy, waiting, more doctor appointments. (I'm guessing you can see where I'm going with this. Did you know April is Infertility Awareness Month? Yes it is. My timing is perfection.)
I've debated whether I wanted to talk about this on my blog. I sat down to write something yesterday - something cheery - but I was forcing something I wasn't feeling. When it comes right down to it I haven't been cheery at all this past week - my son and husband can attest to this. Yesterday at the store I almost broke down in tears for no good reason. That's what mega-doses of hormones will do for you, folks. Make you wanna cry while looking at Peeps among all the Easter candy and decorations. Not pretty.
I don't want to wallow or complain, but I do want to be honest in this little virtual place.

a little smile.

In other, more uplifting news:
  • I picked-up the new Alison Krauss CD Tuesday and it is amazingly, gorgeous music to my ears. 
  • I also purchased tickets to the Alison Krauss concert in June. Can. Not. Wait. It's the day after my birthday.
  • Tuesday was Muffins with Mom day at preschool. It was so cute. The kids sang songs for us, introduced us, and gave us sweet little gifts. And the muffins were delicious! I would have eaten the rest of Max's muffin, but didn't want to look like a pig.
  • We got a new bed Monday. I told my husband last night that I wanted a whole day to just sleep in that bed. It is that comfortable. 
  • A wonderful friend watched Max today while I headed to yet another doctor appointment in Portland. I dropped Max off at 7:30. Yes, she is a wonderful gal and I owe her dearly for the early wake-up/drop-off.
That's about all I've got this Friday. All I'd really like to do now is go crawl in bed and sleep for a few hours. But my bed will still be there waiting for me tonight - after dishes are washed, toys put away, boys tucked in bed, DVR'd shows watched...
And the photos are totally random today. They are photos of the loved ones putting-up with me this week, and loving me despite my moods. (I haven't felt much like picking up my camera this week. In my hormonal state I'm convinced my camera is awful in low-light conditions, and that I really NEED a new camera. Yes, these are the kinds of things that will bring a girl in my condition down... I will laugh about this someday...)

brown eyes.


Wendy said...

I'm sending you good vibes. be kind to yourself, and if you wanna cry at peeps, DO IT!! hope you have a good weekend!

P.S. I'm convinced my camera is horrible in low light, too, and I can't blame it on hormones...i want the 5dmkII so badly!

Marvett Smith said...

Hang in there. I will keep you in my prayers. Your little Max's eyelashes are amazing, and you captured them so well.
P.S.- I need a new camera too!

Tracey said...

Praying for you and the hormonal/infertility stuff. My sis-in-law is going through it to. I watch how hard it is and my heart goes out to you.

Did you know they didn't do Muffins for Mom's at our kids' school this year. Totally bummed about that. :(

Maybe you don't need a new camera, you just need a new lens with a lower fstop so you can let in more light? Not sure what you shoot with?

Amanda said...

Loving the pics of your boys! So sweet. Hugs to you and sending lots of good vibes your way...hang in there. ;)
On another note, I'm getting crazy new camera thoughts in my head too. Low-light situations make me nuts and I'm realizing the limitations of my camera, even with a 50mm 1.4 lens (which I love!).

Lisa McCully said...

Wishing you the best of good luck with the fertility daze, prayers too. Beautiful pictures too, your son is so cute :)

Shawntae said...

Okay maybe I don't see every single post.. just going through and noticed a few I don't remember seeing. I do have incredibly slow dsl though, so I sometimes get impatient with google reader loading all the way. :)